UnderstandIng

I get it and then I don't.
You care, but then you change your mind
I'm everything you need, but run away from
Your speak to me is lyrical, and in the end just empty words

I am beautiful to you, yet you don't see how gorgeous I truly am
You say that you're busy, when really you're deliberately occupied
I would lay my life down for you, but you'd walk around me to get across
You let me be close to you, only to see if you could. There was no surrender.

I miss you is a relative term not heartfelt
You say you love me when I ask, but not because of inspiration

I am your friend, but can you treat me like I am yours?
You said,"let's work it out." were you talking to me? Or him?

How long was the performance going to last?

Why is that you don't want to tell me to go, and can never ask me to stay?

In spite of it all why do I believe in for better or worse?

Is it fair that you get a new life and a possible new love, while I pick up pieces from our life and the love you let go of?

I understand the lesson in learning to love me. My pain blocks me from understanding the lesson in loving you.

...but I still do. help me understand.