Distance

Although it is often times the last thing on my mind lately, the thought of love is bittersweet for me. Not in the sense that I don't believe or hope in love. Love is just a puzzle that I've tried to figure out but hadn't been able until I lost a love that was important to me. If it was important then why did I lose it is the question I hear you all asking right? Well, I didn't love myself and I didn't know how to receive and give love.

The obvious is hard to ignore, but we still try. The obvious being that life does (and has) go on. After all is said and done there may be moments when you have to push and sometimes fight through the dark pain and emotions to get to the lessons in everything. Although you may think you've moved passed it and might be..."ready" you never know for sure until you give it a real try. Afterwards, you may discover that a step back is needed.

What is infinitely more obvious overall however, is that love never changes. It is always our ideas, fears, expectations, misjudgements, actions and inactions, and control issues that seem to dictate our ideas on love.

Love was easier when we were young, and we didn't know what heartbreak was. Love was love, in all of its perfect God given beauty. I am coming back in that place. That's the sweet of it. Only time and distance will tell for sure.

Love you,

SB

Distance

Choices made. Pondered over
Little need for explanation of
Healing's time and constant wonder 

A pause and stop
Our ebbs and flows
Leave traces hints at best of a
Rhythm born new

Seen finally by our naked eyes
Whats unrequited and without pride? 
Nothing festered nor boiling over

The bitten lip to the cautious smile
Gives way to guards let down unexpected surprise

Into comfortable unknowns along separate paths
Distanced yet close
Love's end undisclosed